Well tomorrow we leave for San Antonio.  Today I voted and got a haircut. I'm mostly packed. I'm soo blessed with a wonderful family! The kids came over to eat, visit, see what needed done, and give me hugs and kisses.  Tara doesn't like me saying "I'll be hot in time for your wedding" but I will!!
My parents called, wishing me well, and my Dad asking if I'm getting a brazillian butt. Ha, he makes me laugh.  And my dear friends, Nancy called wishing well, Dana called giving me encouragment, and Rhonda is ready and waiting for me, her houseguest/patient.  I would say it's been a great day with texts of the people I've shared with.  All well wishers.  Surround yourself with people who are supportive and understand, and those who want to talk ill of what you're doing, let them go do that...it's not their journey, they don't get it, and they don't want to share it, don't let them bring you down.
I'm feeling emotional tonight.  Wondering if a sane person really voluntarily undergoes a surgery with the potential for "pain" - but I've worked hard to lose the weight, and will continue to sculpt my body with diet and excercise, and I deserve it.  As I was told tonight, "this is about you taking time for yourself."
See I'm worried with a rescheduling of the tube removal, so I will be without Rick for a few days.  Rhonda will be a great nurse I know!  Mallory would drop everything to go there with me, or bring me home, but I've decided at this point, to ask her to help once I'm back at home.  While I'm there, I plan to sleep and "recover".
The emotions are strange.  I feel selfish. Scared. Anxiety. And at the same time I'm so excited, so anxious to lose this skin and fat, so ready to feel the change!
I doubt I sleep tonight. My brain just won't quit. It's surreal that in 48 hours I will have undergone a change to enhance what I've been working at the last 2 1/2 years!
I love my family dearly and I thank them for their support! I apologize in advance for the tears and the crazy medicine talk that is sure to come. Love you guys! Let's do this thing!